This is an entry from my Myspace blog from June 15 2008.
I
went to Church camp the 9th through the 13th, and I can honestly say
that WOW God has changed me even MORE! It's like I'm going to go out
THERE AND TELL PEOPLE ABOUT JESUS! I'm not stopping this time. No siree
Bob. I love God way too much.
So Here's the thing, I had been
doing a lot of things right as far as my walk goes before camp, but I
realized throughout the week that although I was doing the so called
"right" stuff, I wasn't actually putting my whole heart into it all.
Like a lot of times when I'd pray before I'd go to bed, I'd fall asleep
because I'm too tired(which think about it, wouldn't you find it pretty
rude if you were on the phone with someone who supposedly loved and
cared about you and they just fell asleep on you and convo ended right
there? No see ya, talk to you later, or byes or anything? I would.) and
when I'd pray over my food I'd rush it, when I'd read my Bible I
wouldn't take time to actually let it "soak in" and teach me something, I
was nice to a lot of people, but I was very judgmental of a lot of
people as well. You are to love as though Christ loves you and so I
really recognized the fact that I needed to step it up like 10098098098
notches to be where I truly should/need to be. There were several
different speakers who well SPOKE lol there but the one who really stuck
out to me the most was Jacob Jester. He was the main guy. He taught us
about our prayer life, and how that is how we connect with God. Without
prayer our relationship with God is pretty much crud. You can't have a
relationship without talking to them. He also taugh us about serving and
telling which was my favorite of the week. He brought up how his heart
breaks for his baby boy who is going to grow up with way worse
temptations than the ones we face today. The rate of negativity is just
going to sky rocket, unless of course we (Christians) step up and start a
"revival". We need to go out and reach people all over the place. We
need to help touch hearts and pray. Pray for our schools, Churches,
families, friends, EVERYONE. So yeah it was pretty much AMAZING. God
really spoke to me no joke. I mean I usually was the kid who stayed in
their isle during worship,while almost everyone else went up to the
alters and raised their hands and really got into it. But this past week
I was one of the majority. Not that that's what I was striving to be,
but I'm saying basically I didn't care about Anyone else around me. Not
Jared, not my youth leaders, not my brother, or anyone else in the
place. I was focusing solely on God. I wasn't embarrassed or ashamed or
anything. I was truly worshiping God with my whole heart for the first
time in my life, and the feeling was totally amazing. Ever since that
moment, something caught on fire in me. That something I do believe is
Jesus. He is blazing inside of me, taking over all of me, and I'm
letting him. I'm not letting Satan get the best of me this time. I can
win this battle with God's help, and I will :). I am 100% with Jesus now
and NOONE is going to hold me back not anyone. Not now, nor ever. I
love my Jesus so much and I guarantee you, you will see a difference in
me :)
Love and prayers.
