This is an entry from my Myspace blog from December 27 2007.
So yeah I kind of need to tell you all about something....So I have
recently found out that I have a non-curable disease....It's one that
not very many people have heard of....It's called something like the
Jared disease....Oh my goodness let me tell you, I've got it
bad!!...It's like the worst case ever!!...And it's going to be with me
forever...How cool!!..Haha no but seriously if you think about
it...That's pretty much what he is...Not in a bad way....In a good way
:)...I like the fact that he's going to be here forever....It gives me
great comfort...And I love my disease with a passion!!!...It's like I
grow to love him more each day....I'm smiling as we speak...Because I'm
just sooo happy with him!!..It's kind of like when you first learn how
to ride your bike, or when you learn your first song on guitar....You
are soooooooooo excited and you just want to tell everyone and show
them...It's like one of the happiest moments of your life....It seems
like it wasn't too long ago when I was one of those girls who watched
those lovey dovey movies where the perfect guy always comes into their
lives......Everything's fine and dandy....But it made me soooooo
sick!!..I mean because I was soo envious because I had never experienced
that...I wanted it sooooooooooooooo bad you have no idea....And alot of
my friends were even experiencing it....I was growing impatient...I
mean I dated a lot of guys that were nowhere near perfect....But finally
at rose I believe I noticed Jared...My thought were omgoodness he's
soooooo cute!!!...So I asked him to dance...He said yes of course....I
had never been more happier leaving a dance in my life...It was
amazing.....After that I couldn't stop thinking about him...I saw him
all of the time in the halls and made funny faces and felt dumb after
wards....I was trying sooooo hard to get him to notice me....It felt
like nothing was working....So I started talking to some of my friends
about him....A LOT....And it just so happened to be the case that one of
my friends was in bio with him.....Lol.....So she kinda talked to him
for me...I wanted her to but then again I didn't....And I had this other
friend who was friends with him.....And he talked to him too....Come to
find out, Jared liked some girl from cassiville or carthage or
something....I was soooooooooooooooooo sad I'm not even kidding....I
talked about how much I hated that girl for a long time....But finally
one night at home a thought came to my head....You see my little brother
Kyle is really good friends with his little brother Andrew....So I put
two and two together, and I asked Kyle for Andrews number....Pathetic
right?....Well I did it and it took a lot of guts but I called and asked
for Jared....When he got on I was sooo embarassed...I just wanted to
hang up and go die..But he was all cool about it....We started talking a
lot more after that....And of course I started liking him more...I was
soo sad though because I knew that we were probably NEVER going to be
anything more than friends....There was a few times when I admitted to
liking him on the phone....Like once before we got off I was like I need
to tell you something....And I couldn't bring myself to do it...So
right before we hung up I was like "I like you bye"...He didn't even
hear me...Grr this made me feel even more stupid to say the least...Yeah
we just talked for a long time..It was beginning to kill me...I wanted
to date him sooooo bad....And it felt like he didn't want me so I was
upset...But on March 12th, the day before my birthday he asked me
out...I was like no at first, just kidding around, but then I was like
YES!!...It was amazing...I slept really good that night let me tell
you...So yeah that was the beginning of my "love-life"...I won him
over....WOAHOOO!..And about the other chick from the c place...Her name
was Andrea.....I guess he asked her out and she said no....THANK
GOD!!..And yeah I met her at camp...She turned out to be an okay
girl....Lol...No she's cool...But yeah how could you possibly say no to
that sweet face!!??......Well it doesn't matter now cuz I got em!!
Hehe....I love my disease
Love you bby!! FOREVER AND ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT!!!
