My Love.....

This is an entry from my Myspace blog from June 14 2007.

Reasons Why I Love Jared Gilliam...

Pretty smile

In a band

Dresses good

Smells amazing

Funny

Sweet

Charming

Christian

Great kisser

Always has gum lol

Learned a song for me

Still treats me good in front of his friends

Gorgeous eyes

Amazing hair

Not too fat not too skinny

Pays for me sometimes but not always

Always says sorry when he hurts me

Forgives me when I'm being stupid

SOOO CUTE!!

Will watch chick flicks with me

Carries my purse

Isn't super afraid of, and immature about the personal problem that girls have lol..

Not afraid to show how much he loves me

Family oriented

Doesnt care what people think about him or me

Very clean

Loves me for me

Would, I mean does give me the world!!!

I love ya Jared!

My Disease...

 This is an entry from my Myspace blog from December 27 2007.


So yeah I kind of need to tell you all about something....So I have recently found out that I have a non-curable disease....It's one that not very many people have heard of....It's called something like the Jared disease....Oh my goodness let me tell you, I've got it bad!!...It's like the worst case ever!!...And it's going to be with me forever...How cool!!..Haha no but seriously if you think about it...That's pretty much what he is...Not in a bad way....In a good way :)...I like the fact that he's going to be here forever....It gives me great comfort...And I love my disease with a passion!!!...It's like I grow to love him more each day....I'm smiling as we speak...Because I'm just sooo happy with him!!..It's kind of like when you first learn how to ride your bike, or when you learn your first song on guitar....You are soooooooooo excited and you just want to tell everyone and show them...It's like one of the happiest moments of your life....It seems like it wasn't too long ago when I was one of those girls who watched those lovey dovey movies where the perfect guy always comes into their lives......Everything's fine and dandy....But it made me soooooo sick!!..I mean because I was soo envious because I had never experienced that...I wanted it sooooooooooooooo bad you have no idea....And alot of my friends were even experiencing it....I was growing impatient...I mean I dated a lot of guys that were nowhere near perfect....But finally at rose I believe I noticed Jared...My thought were omgoodness he's soooooo cute!!!...So I asked him to dance...He said yes of course....I had never been more happier leaving a dance in my life...It was amazing.....After that I couldn't stop thinking about him...I saw him all of the time in the halls and made funny faces and felt dumb after wards....I was trying sooooo hard to get him to notice me....It felt like nothing was working....So I started talking to some of my friends about him....A LOT....And it just so happened to be the case that one of my friends was in bio with him.....Lol.....So she kinda talked to him for me...I wanted her to but then again I didn't....And I had this other friend who was friends with him.....And he talked to him too....Come to find out, Jared liked some girl from cassiville or carthage or something....I was soooooooooooooooooo sad I'm not even kidding....I talked about how much I hated that girl for a long time....But finally one night at home a thought came to my head....You see my little brother Kyle is really good friends with his little brother Andrew....So I put two and two together, and I asked Kyle for Andrews number....Pathetic right?....Well I did it and it took a lot of guts but I called and asked for Jared....When he got on I was sooo embarassed...I just wanted to hang up and go die..But he was all cool about it....We started talking a lot more after that....And of course I started liking him more...I was soo sad though because I knew that we were probably NEVER going to be anything more than friends....There was a few times when I admitted to liking him on the phone....Like once before we got off I was like I need to tell you something....And I couldn't bring myself to do it...So right before we hung up I was like "I like you bye"...He didn't even hear me...Grr this made me feel even more stupid to say the least...Yeah we just talked for a long time..It was beginning to kill me...I wanted to date him sooooo bad....And it felt like he didn't want me so I was upset...But on March 12th, the day before my birthday he asked me out...I was like no at first, just kidding around, but then I was like YES!!...It was amazing...I slept really good that night let me tell you...So yeah that was the beginning of my "love-life"...I won him over....WOAHOOO!..And about the other chick from the c place...Her name was Andrea.....I guess he asked her out and she said no....THANK GOD!!..And yeah I met her at camp...She turned out to be an okay girl....Lol...No she's cool...But yeah how could you possibly say no to that sweet face!!??......Well it doesn't matter now cuz I got em!! Hehe....I love my disease
Love you bby!! FOREVER AND ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Clarification....

 This is an entry from my Myspace blog from January 13 2008


Okay so I need to clarify something...I am Jessica Marie Myers...I am not emo, I'm not a prep, I'm not a fake, and I'm not a punk....I don't just dress one way...I dress different ways to suit my mood...Some mornings I wake up and I want to wear all black, some days I decide to be bright and colorful so I wear pink or orange, or sometimes even both...It all depends....I sometimes wear a lot of eye liner, and sometimes not really any at all...I have done some not so great things in my past, but I have lived and learned....I don't drink, smoke, do drugs,  cus, or sneak out...So don't EVER ask me to...I am in love with God...I am trying VERY VERY hard to do everything in my power to please him...I am going to stop gossiping so much and try to just better myself 100%...So yeah you can say I've changed....I'm not the old Jess anymore, I'm the new and improved Jess...I mean sure I'm still oober crazy and do random things, but I'm not going to break others down or myself anymore...I am going to be a "goodie good" if you will...And I honestly do not care what ANYONE has to say about it...So just because I may dress a certain way doesn't make me a bad person, or a fake....I'm simply Jessica..Nothing more and nothing less....Don't expect me to be perfect because I'm not, and neither are you...I do mess up a lot, but I'm going to learn to stop dwelling on it and move on...If I do mess up though and I don't realize it but you do, let me know...Sometimes I need people to just tell me what I'm doing wrong you Know?...So yeah just had to get that clear...

Martian Child

 This is an entry from my Myspace blog from February 23 2008.


I just watched this movie entitled "Martian Child" yesterday. It was a very cute movie that actually had a good story line. I suppose different people could have got different things out of it than I did, but hey everyone's different. In the movie, Dennis ( the "martian child") was a very "unique" kid if you will. He was a foster child who felt like the world was against him. His former "parents'' left him. All of the other kids thought he was weird because he was afraid of the sun. Anyway lets cut to the chase. Dennis believed that he was from mars. He thought that he was sent here for a reason, and that he was on a "mission". Everyone thought he was nuts. Okay see I think this was really cool because it's kinda like us. Each and every person is sent here for a reason. We all have different missions, and a certain amount of time to accomplish them. God has a plan for all of us and a will for our lives, just like the "martians" did for Dennis. I think it pretty well relates to it. I just thought it was cute : )

I'm Graduated!

This is an entry that I posted on my Myspace blog on July 23 2009....I'm just transferring all of my blogs over so that I don't lose them, seeing as how I no longer do Myspace. :)

 

 

Okay so now that I am graduated and all,  things are tough. I am trying so hard to figure out what God's plan for me is and it's difficult. I am almost positive he wants me to do Masters Commission, but it feels nothing is working out with that. It could however be satan trying to discourage me. But anywho. Things are just so crazzi and up in the air right now. I could use a LOT of prayer and encouragment. That would be awesome. Another thing that's really been bugging my heart is that my Jared is leaving me for college next month. I'm so so happy for him, but I am going to miss him so much. It's so cool that he knows exactly what God wants him to do with his life, I'm sorta envious lol. But yeah I know he'll have lots of fun and make tons of new friends. It's a good thing...Okay I'll talk about some good things that are going on right now...I work at Mocha Jo's coffe cafe and it's AMAZING. I love it. It's Christian ran, and the people are just wonderful. I never thought I would be able to say that I love my job, but I really do. Another thing is Amber is coming back to Missouri. She moved to Arizona for awhile, but now she's coming back. YAY. See Amber and I have a very difficult friendship. We fight SO SO much and disagree constantly, but we always seem to make up lol. So yeah I miss her. A lot. So that's my life for now.  K bye. Oh and remember to pray for me and encourage me, I wasn't kidding whenever I said that I really need it :) THanks. <3

"The Odd Life of Timothy Green"...My thoughts.

Okay, so my Mom and I went to the theater today to see the new movie "The Odd Life of Timothy Green". It was an absolutely spectacular movie. It was so inspiring to me as a "soon to become mother". I learned that being a parent is such a special and precious gift. I also realized that there are so many couples out there who would make amazing parents that can't conceive. And there are also so many couples who have no desire to become parents and don't even care about kids who are able to conceive more than 1 child. To me, it doesn't seem fair, but I understand that God has a bigger plan for us all even when it doesn't really seem like it. In the movie Cindy and Jim Green are told that they are infertile. They are devastated, and their world is turned upside down. They are the best couple to have a baby, yet they cannot. Eventually Cindy decides she's going to give up and move on, but Jim refuses to let her. They take a notebook and write down all of the qualities that "their kid" would have. They then put them in a box and bury it in their garden. That was the night that little Timothy appeared. Timothy was exactly what they had pictured in "their kid". They loved and treated him the way they should. I'm not going to give the whole movie away, but it really did touch my heart. Timothy taught them that it doesn't matter what other people think of you or if you are different. Being odd, or different is what makes us unique. I am so appreciative to God that Jared and I were able to create a life. I can't wait till my little one gets here so that I can begin the parenting adventures. It's going to be amazing! It'll also be hard at times, and I know that, I'm still excited about every part about it. Jared and I are going to make mistakes as parents. As Cindy said, we'll make mistakes while trying to fix mistakes. It's going to be super tough at times, but I'm going to enjoy every bit of life with my kids and my husband.

My Bucket List

So I'm sure everyone has watched the movie "The Bucket List". I've decided to take the idea and create my own list. There are so many things that I want to accomplish, do and see before I pass away from this life.
1. Go to college and get a degree as well as my photographers license
2. Become a photographer
3. Be the best wife I can possibly be
4. Be an awesome Mom who my children can look up to and want to be like
5. Buy a Volkswagen Hippie Van and help Jared fix it up-Paint it a fun bright color with daisies and love all over it
6. Travel around the world in my rad Hippie Van with my amazing husband
7. Become a work-out guru, I now this sound lame to be on a Bucket List but it's something I've always struggled with, staying fit and whatnot
8. Become someone who WANTS to eat healthy and take care of herself
9. Always stay in Church and make my children go with me
10. Be a Godly woman and strive to always achieve what he wants me to
11. Follow God's plan for my life
12. Be a positive person and a happy influence on everyone I come into contact with
13. Be able to sing in front of people and not feel embarrassed
14. Change someone's life forever, in a good way
15.  Save someone's life
16. Be the change I want to see in the world
17. Go to Sanfrancisco with my Meema and Madre
18. Take a super romantic trip alone with my Husband to Ireland
19. See the Statue of Liberty
20. See the Northern Lights in Alaska
21. Hike up a mountain
22. Go on a long backpacking trip
23. Ride in a hot air balloon
24. Go on a safari
25. Learn how to play piano and guitar
26. Guest star in a tv show or be an extra in a movie
27. Go to Hollywood and see everything
28. See a broadway play
29. Capture every single spectacular moment of my life with a picture or jot it down in a notebook
30. Love like Jesus loved
31. Be passionate and a good listener
32. Always be sympathetic and take people's words for it
33. Live like a hippie for at least a month
34. Never be afraid to dance in public
35. Always hold hands with Jared and kiss him good night each night
36. Sleep in the same bed as Jared forever, I don't want to be the older couple who sleep in seperate rooms
37. Adopt a child
38. Get a tattoo
39. Swim with the dolphins
40. Scuba Dive

I'm sure that I will think of more things in the future to add to my list, but as for now this is good. I know it will be hard to achieve all of the goals but I'm going to try my very best to do as much as I can. Some are obviously more important than others.