I'm not gonna lie....Sometimes I feel depressed...I feel worthless, and I feel like my life is purposeless...The reason I normally feel like this is because of my migraines...Sometimes I wonder why I'm here...Why I even bother waking up in the mornings...The pain is sometimes so bad that I curl up into the fetal position and just bawl....I get so consumed with anger and resentment that I forget about the one thing in my life that is constant and so good.........
This girl right here....
She's my Angel...My happiness...My everything....Some days may be worse than others, but her love for me and her need for me are always there...When my spirit tells me I can't or I'm not, she tells me I can and I am...She reminds me that no matter how bad I feel, it's not my right to give up on life....I CAN make it through this...I AM her "Mommy" and I AM going to get past this hurdle...
I need to live to guide her through her life...My life is no longer my own, it's shared with this goofy, sweet face...When I'm down, or hurting badly, she cuddles me and makes me feel better...She sometimes knows when her "Mommy" isn't feeling well...She loves me and comforts me through it, without even knowing she's doing so...
She gets hurt and upset when I'm in bed all day because of an "attack"....She just says "Mommy, Mom, Mama"...She says it over and over again...She gives me kisses and hugs...It makes me feel so bad that I can't give her all the attention she deserves, so I always try and make up for it on my good days.
I hope that one day I can have more good days than bad days...Until then, I will just cherish every single moment I can with her...She's my world...She's my baby girl, my best friend, the one who makes it all better...When she smiles, it's like a medicine...No one can comfort me like she can, just like no one can comfort her like her mama....We are two peas in a pod and I am so thankful that God blessed me with her presence...
