"When it rains it pours" is a HUGE understatement of what I'm going through right now....2012 Has been a pretty good year up until now....I need to vent, so this may sound pretty negative, but that's the good thing about blogs right? You can be yourself and be as honest as you like.....Anyway...I'm expecting a baby in March, which as you probably know can be stressful. I'm not stressed about the fact that I'm going to have a precious baby, but I'm stressed about what the baby is going to be born into. I want everything to be settled and peaceful when she arrives (as most parents do I presume). I know that things aren't ever going to be perfect, but that's what I feel like they should be, I guess that's the problem...Okay so it started to "rain" a few days ago when I was told that my last day of working would be the end of December....I hadn't planned on working passed Feb, but I HAD planned on working up till then....The lady I watch her kids for has already found my "replacement", which I totally am cool with.....It's just that we are now losing 2 months of income that we had been banking on....We are selling our car because there's NO WAY we can afford car payments and full coverage insurance with one income....So it's "raining" a little harder since we are trying to find someone to buy it for the amount we need to sell it for.... it's because of the fact that we are having a baby is why the things we are going through seem so extra stressful....So today I got a letter in the mail from my land lord telling me that on Feb 1st our "residency will be terminated".....That's the day that our lease is up, but my husband and I had planned on signing another years lease and staying there....I've already got the nursery all pretty and have begun nesting.....Well anyway, I called him and asked him what was going on and if we had the option to stay and he told me that they are going to be selling the house......WTF???? SO now as you can see, it's begun "POURING".....I think more like flooding actually....But that's just me....I have so much to be thankful for, and don't get me wrong, I am VERY thankful that things aren't any "worse" than they are.....It's so hard to focus on good things when it seems like life hates you so much, which is how I feel right now..............So I'm at the point now where I either need to let go and let God, or drown.....Hmm I think I'm going to go with the God option.....He's the only one who can save us from this nasty mess of a situation....I'm going to be seeking him more and more and trusting that he KNOWS what's best for our family and that things are going to work out for his purpose. It's funny because we always come up with all of these "plans" and ways that WE expect things to be, but in reality God is the one with the plan, and his plan is what's going to be fulfilled, not our own....So I'm comforted by the fact that I have someone so powerful on my side pulling for me......Just gotta pray and trust now. It'll all work out for the best, I know this....I just need to keep believing that....
